Is this what they call a crossroads?

Two years ago I met someone in SL. He encouraged me to build and taught me some fantastic tricks. We found a small parcel on Areumdeuli and I set up a silks shop. I took a break for 4 months and when I came back he had moved on but the shop and the land was still there. All mine. I brokered a trade with a neighbor and was able to piece together a nice parcel where I spent a lot of my time. Over the past year and a half I've had a few different builds, but could usually be found there tinkering on something. Most recently I ressurected my main shop on the parcel but my heart just isn't in it. Tonight I tore down the shop. I still plan to maintain my corner shop at Juicy (been there since the walls were first going up) and my Xstreet SL account, but no more big shop.

So all that remains now is my municipal building and the basketball courts. Hardly builds that I would consider consequential in the grand scheme of SL, but nevertheless I'm struggling with pulling them up. I can take them in one piece and always keep to rez somewhere else, but I'm not sure that they would have the same charm. And what about the art that I house in the muni building? My seaside shanty is scarcely big enough as it is, how am I going to find wall space now? Some of the items in the building are things I rezzed many moons ago and have never taken them back into my inventory. To me there is a sadness about taking this all up and selling off the parcel. I think because it signifies the change that always makes me melancholy.

I should mention that this all came to light because I have a yearly premium coming due. And this time around I lack a compelling reason to renew. Wait. I have wonderful friends, a great little home, cute corner shop, and so much exploration to do so this is NOT a farewell Second Life post. I'm merely saying that maybe I've reached the next big moment in my SLife. Why do I feel like I'm falling off a cliff?